I have a problem on my hands, I’ve been thinking of Christmas and I’ve stumbled on a problem, I want to get David a present, but I feel anything I give him will be completely unacceptable because he’s given me a whole lost of things that are untangable, like understanding when I over react to nothing, when I had a blow up at him for, well, nothing he understood why when I told him pretty much everything, when he pushed me to get in contact with my family, when he made me realise nothing is perfect, when he made me realise that I can no longer cope with everything alone, he made me realise that I am not alone, he made me realise that the ‘defences’ I have had for years are no longer needed, when he made me realise the past means nothing in the now.

I can’t attach an object of any kind to that kind of gift, I can’t really attach anything period to show how thankful I am for what he has done.

Thats my problem. For the first time in my life I can’t just write christmas off as an irritating bank holiday that prevents me from walking into my local shop. For once it means something more than a day and I don’t know how to give back to somebody thats given me a lot.

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